[ the hand that's flown up to Kuja's mouth to cover it, a vain effort hold back what's already been said, is a clear sign he sees right where he's been led. ]
Enough. You're right. ...I couldn't... I didn't want it enough.
[ from the moment he'd looked down at that humble altar, everyone's tributes to the people they missed... from the moment he started pouring everything he had into something he could feel wasn't working...
collapsing time and space to a singular point wasn't exactly something you could do without putting your whole chest into it. and he hadn't been.
then there was a point where it stopped being "we're all going down together." ]
...realized that a little late, of course. Could have spared myself a good amount of trouble. [ When he says 'trouble,' he taps a certain spot on the gem-- the newest crack, made the day he'd Trnaced. He doesn't trust his hands, especially right after fumbling a plate, so he's just... going to lay his gem down on the table. He'll wrap it up properly later. ]
cw suicidality in brackets but . That's sort of been here from the start
Date: 2023-03-20 06:45 pm (UTC)[ the hand that's flown up to Kuja's mouth to cover it, a vain effort hold back what's already been said, is a clear sign he sees right where he's been led. ]
Enough. You're right.
...I couldn't... I didn't want it enough.
[ from the moment he'd looked down at that humble altar, everyone's tributes to the people they missed... from the moment he started pouring everything he had into something he could feel wasn't working...
collapsing time and space to a singular point wasn't exactly something you could do without putting your whole chest into it. and he hadn't been.
then there was a point where it stopped being "we're all going down together." ]
...realized that a little late, of course. Could have spared myself a good amount of trouble. [ When he says 'trouble,' he taps a certain spot on the gem-- the newest crack, made the day he'd Trnaced. He doesn't trust his hands, especially right after fumbling a plate, so he's just... going to lay his gem down on the table. He'll wrap it up properly later. ]